When the world seems to cave in on me

I knit.

I have been skating like crap for weeks lately, and often not even enjoying it, which is really rather upsetting.  That's a total understatement - that something I adore to my core is now just frustrating and not so fun?  Eesh.  I can deal with the frustration of learning new skills and it taking forever and a day.  In fact - I enjoy that kind of frustration - no matter how you slice it, there's always something new to learn on the ice and part of the fun for me is going through that process.  Not so much the frustration of the disappearing joy.  I've tried taking a break, I've tried pushing through it, I've tried everything I can think of - and the real problem?  Hard things from other parts of my life are oozing over way too much.

I have been eating way more than my body needs, and drinking way more alcohol calories than usual with the now-requisite nightly gin and tonic.  (I am however enjoying my exploration of gin.  And this blog.  So far?  Junipero is my favorite brand.) 

Work has been - upsetting to say the least.  Crimes happen, this one affected a whole whack of people and has had major repercussions on my office, my job, my university and yes, on myself.  Despite the lack of personal culpability a whole lotta crap has come my way.  Enough said really.  Really?  It sucks all around.  And there's much work, trials, and tribulations to be gone through before attaining a more even keel.  The positive?  Really the only positive I can think of is that I am now probably an expert on maintaining security of sensitive data.  If you need someone to do that kind of job, I'm a really good person to hire.

Knitting however?  I think I'm trying to knit myself back together.  I am less than two 3/4 length sleeves away from finishing a sweater (Manon) - at the moment, it's a sweater vest heh and it fits fabulously.  I can't wait til it's blocked and ready to wear.  I have pictures on the camera, but I'm here and the camera is not.  I started it a little over a month ago; I had a few false starts in the name of gauge issues and an out of town trip with smaller more portable knitting instead.  It's a record for me in terms of progress towards an FO.

Is it a problem that my last three sweaters knit (counting this one) have all been about the same color of green?

Comments

[Kat]

I worked on a data theft matter and it sent my career in all sorts of crazy directions. You have my sympathies - I know first hand of what's involved with data protection.

Good luck with the sweater!

[Gina]

Hey, hang in there. This too shall pass. :) Have fun with the sweater...all mine are brown lately. Sigh.

[greta]

hugs to you and yours...
Knit ON, through all manner
of crisis...
it is the Only WAY.
xoxox